I was Christian orthodox just 4 years. I became Christian not because I believed in Jesus but because everybody was Christian around me. After I had gone to Italy where most of the people are Christian catholic I had big problem there and gone to die. When I was near death I prayed to Allah (swt) one month to safe my life and promised Allah (swt) that if he safe my life I will spend the rest of my life just for him. To worship him, to accept his will always and follow his way, to help people, and live just for him. That I wont have my own desires and wants and my desires and wants will be his will. I never prayed to Jesus when I was Christian. I prayed to God. After that Allah (swt) saved my life and little by little I became better Alhamdolillah. I began to search for the truth in religion, and I didnít find that truth in Christianity orthodox. After I studied Christianity catholic and didnít find the truth here also. After that I thought I will be always alone and will follow my own way different than the others. I searched for the truth and rules of Allah (swt) in my own life. I analysed every situation and tried to get knowledge. Tried to feel what Allah (swt) wants from me and tried to follow his will. This period Allah (swt) gave me many tests and difficult situations, which I passed just because I listened to Allah (swt). I donít know if u will understand what I mean by ďlistenĒ. Its not voice but its feeling. It comes like knowledge without words and makes me understand what I have to do and where to go. It is this feeling that makes me understand the truth from lie and if I am right or wrong, also I looked for signs in my life to show if my feeling is right or wrong.
And alhamdolillah there were many signs that showed me my feeling is right and after that I saw I was really right. I found most of the rules in Islam by just analysing my life and listening to Allah (swt) and looking for his signs. First I found if something is wrong and after I found why itís wrong. I mean first was feeling and after was the explanation. After that by chance I met Muslim man online who wanted to marry me. I tried to go to him but everything happened to stop me, so I was sure he is not the right man for me. (By the way it was funny that all men wanted to marry me and tried to come to me always had something to stop them till I found my husband. He was the only one met me and I was sure he is the right man for me alhamdolilllah). But this made me interested from Muslims and Islam, I began to talk to many Muslims. One night I gone to die again, this time the phone rang and it was my close friend from Saudia. I havenít power to talk and when he felt I feel very bad he told me to listen to him, I havenít choice anyway I havenít power to talk, so he began recite something in Arabic, as he told me after it was Qurían. When he finished I felt so good and I asked him what were that words who saved my life. He said it was Qurían. I got strange feeling when he recited, like yellow light came in my heart and made me feel strong and calm. Itís made me interested to read Qurían, I found Bulgarian translation of Qurían (because I am Bulgarian by the way) and began to read. I was more than shocked when I found the same rules I already knew of God and much more I still didnít know. When I tested the text with my heart if its truth I found this is 100% truth.
Before always when I read something I found there is truth but there are much not true things too. I never read or heard before 100% truth. I thought there is not book or religion which is 100% true, but alhamdolillah I found Islam is that religion and Qurían is that book. So I decided to convert.
Began reading online sites about Islam and found many good brothers and sisters helped me so much alhamdolillah. After I met my husband who is Muslim too. It was the last sign from Allah (swt) showed me I have to convert. So 3 days before I married I gone with my husband to convert in Cairo. When I walked to the place to convert I felt like my power finished, like I will fall down and prayed in my mind to Allah (swt) if he wants me to be Muslim to give me power to go to convert. After I gone there and said shahada in front of the Sheikh, my husband and his brother, I saw something dark gone from me, was like black clothes, it wasnít material but I could see like black smoke gone out from me. After that I felt like light is coming out of me, it was incredible. For just one minute I changed so much alhamdolillah. My husband told me that Allah (swt) forgave all my sins and I am clean like baby, when he said that I understood that the smoke I saw gone out from me were my sins.(I didnít know I have so much sins) So then I began to live like Muslim and learn as much as I can about Islam.
My life became better alhamdolillah.