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Raja Ferrell

I am a revert. I became muslim on July 21st of 2000. One night I was sitting at this computer, thinking of nothing, watching my screensaver bouncing around. Then for no reason I started to cry. I felt pain in my heart so bad. Then I felt and somehow heard the word Islam. Then I felt and or heard in my mind the word Muslim. Now since Jan 1 2000 I had felt the desire to change. And these changes came slow but dramatic. I quit drinking, smoking. I had the desire to cover. So I started wearing loose pants with big legs. Still I was kaffar as a kaffar can be. But on July 21st Allah thought I was ready. So as soon as these words went thru my heart I started searching online. I found out how to do shahada, I did it. I got in an Islamic chat room, of course there seemed to be everything in there but a muslim. I typed that I think I’m a Muslim, some made fun, others laughed. Then I got an Instant message from this brother. He asked if I was Muslim. I told him I think so, I did shahada, he said lets do it together, so he took me step by step thru shahada again, by then I was crying I was so happy and excited. It was like 4 in the morning, he told me to find a masjid and do shahada in front of Imam and the Imam would teach me Islam. I found one close 30 miles away, it was in a town called Riverdale. I didn’t tell anyone about my shahada, my husband came home and said, he had to go to Riverdale, my heart almost stopped, I told him I’m going too. After he took care of his business, I told him the directions to where I needed to be. We went there. The Imam was as excited as I was, he told me to bring my husband inside. I got him in there, I did shahada again. The Imam asked

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my husband if he knew what I had done, he said yes but he didn’t really know until later after it all hit him. The Imam told me to cover and gave me dress code hijab etc. I didn’t have the clothes, had a piece of cloth that covered my hair. I wore it. The Imam invited me to have breakfast with his wife. We went out, the women together and the brothers together. I was invited to some scholars that were with them. The imam’s wife gave me some clothes to wear, and hijabs, I was on my way. My husband flipped out late as he saw the transformation, I went from tight levis and short tops to abayas and hijab then a few months later to full hijab niqab, gloves etc.

Holy Quran 7:154
And when Musa’s anger calmed down he took up the tablets, and in the writing thereof was guidance and mercy for those who fear for the sake of their Lord.